I know you’re not enjoying boarding school and feel like you’ve been rejected by your parents. You basically have but you should know this is all dad’s idea. Mum’s not as into it.
I also know you’ve got low self-esteem and spend your time acting like a jackass to make people laugh, purely for attention, pissing about and breaking rules because you’re bored. That’s not cool but to be honest, things are about to get a lot worse.
When you’re offered the chance to smoke something (which you’re told is hash) in about 18 months on the top field, the night of the school disco you’ll need to make up your own mind whether or not to do it. All I’ll do here is tell you the consequences and silver linings.
Do it and you’ll get caught and face rejection again; expulsion from school. Irony of ironies. Nobody wants you. The upside? You’ll be living with mum again. Pretty extreme way to get what you wanted anyway. Staying there probably isn’t for you so just go do it. Or don’t. Whatever.