Don’t ask questions, just listen. I know that’s not easy when you probably have a million things you want to ask. Shut up and listen anyway.
Eventually, you’ll learn that listening is more important than talking. The most important thing to listen to? The little voice in your gut that screams the answers you’re ignoring. If I remember correctly, there are a few things she’s screaming right now in your life I should clear up.
That wave of butterflies you feel when you’re with a girl? That’s what love feels like. You’re gay, and that shouldn’t scare you so much. I know you don’t see gay on TV or know what it would mean for your life, but know this. It won’t ruin you or make anyone worthy of walking beside you through this world think any less of you.
I know walking away has never been easy, especially because you’ve already moved 10+ times. It’s heartbreaking every time, but the resilience you’re learning will be the fuel behind the biggest wins in your life. Wins you can’t even imagine yet.